The so called LIFE!

Some moments will come in life, in most of all. To end up or conclude the story, the story of life!. Without letting it to conclude as its own way with its own climax. The way of choosing our own climax. The climax will be sometimes painful n sometimes other than that as it depends. Sometimes I felt that too, n that made me scribble these.
Is it the working of hormones? Or is this a simply human feeling? Or is this my so called soul, trying to plan a runoff from the body?? Does my soul hate me?? Even a parasite enter in to the body with a hope that it’ll get the kind of care (even if it isn’t normal), and it leaves the place after a series of struggles for its survival or peacefulness. Is my soul also planning to leave like that?? Does my soul feel lonely??? Hmm…Yeah it also needs a mate, isnt it? The so called soul mate?? Heard or read it in many places..
The mind is going blank alternatively. It’s not trying to be in a steady state taking an option of being blank or nourished. Sometimes I’ll think, blank is fine, weightless as it is. But when that blankness or darkness tend to flow outward, that indeed creates a problem. So that’s why it’s alternating time to time.
I am annoyed by certain things. Is it the loneliness or lack of love?? Am I getting enough love? Then my thinking is why this heart or the soul thing is so greedy??I ’m sure that this kind of greediness will end up in something, something very worse. Loneliness, is that for me? Or to my soul??Now I’m having an internal discussion on that topic.
Loneliness..it’s good sometimes. But what happens if it becomes life? These kind of thoughts are fluctuating in my mind. Sitting lazy in these holidays, only the so called loneliness is giving me a company. This long loneliness, a long silence, or a kind of deafness is irritating a lot. The irritation is longing, lasting increasing so on & on and on…
Like a friend said, just love what’s present, that’s all. That’s life. So what is past meant to?? What you had and what u did in past is presently you. So why let the past go neglected? Past, a complicated thing composed of happiness, tears, etc. There’s actually no need for an etc huh?? Past is only happiness and tears. Nothing else than that.
Past, it’s a closed book. Sometimes a closed chapter in a book. That book, can be called as Life or it can be named as anything which everyone wish or feels. Getting to the point, the closed chapters, the so called past are meant just to be closed itself. It’s obviously very hard to open them back. The two things of past, joy n tears will flow out for sure, if opened. So what’s the need for opening?? What’s the need for disturbing the past?? Let that be closed enough. Still a question remains. Why let go past neglected? This part of life’s called dilemma.
The lessons that every stages of life taught are more or less same. What past taught, is similar to what present is now teaching. There’s little change or increase in the syllabi, that can be found when the view is taken somewhat closer.
But, nobody is getting enough time to magnify into their own life. As what they did, what they learnt? The reason for the lack of time will be either due to their job or just sitting lazy. Some people will do magnify into their past. As what they did, learnt and what they got? But most of them in their bedtime. And most of them divert from that topic voluntarily, as they might bring out hard feelings. Sometimes fear, envy n jealous. And some will get mentally fed up due to that and will..hmm..sleep!. That’s also good at sometimes, nah?
Heard many people expressing about the human mind. They say that’s a mirror, glass, touch-me-not n blah blah blah. These metaphors actually varies from mind to mind. It depends upon their soul, character, livelihood, heredity, etc. let’s take the term mind as heart, that’s what the term actually most of the people use instead. Yeah good to hear. The heart(mind) is also a thing which is growing with the man. But the course of time of attaining the stability or the time for a complete growth of each mind differs from man to man, and from situation to situation. Some wont even attain the full growth even in a whole lifetime.

It is the so called mind thing which reflects or defines what you are or what you feel actually. The problem’s of mind is also a depending thing. Actually depends upon the capacity to bear or resolve a problem. The so called capacity is which differs from man to man. And differs a man from another. When problems overflow the capacity obviously it will affect both mentally & physically.
The solution or a relief to the above situation is to sneak into people around, the people with lesser capacities. Sharing time with people with lesser capacities and highly overflowing problems will help either decrease our density of problems or increase our ‘capacity’. And we’ll get a sort of self acknowledgement that our problem is just nothing. And if possible like a mutual help, help those people gain more ‘capacity’. That part of the life will be so precious.
Love, the problematic thing is a kind of isotope of care. Even if the outer matter or the aim is somewhat clear, it is found not only in the same form. It’s found different from places to places. Like said before, mind differs from people to people. Like that most of the things we think same are different in many places and minds. Most of the things are depending. The use of word “depends..” has a higher significance in most of the people’s life. Most people won’t use that word directly, but is obvious that they’ll use that indirectly many times.
Well, coming to the topic. The depending thing called the love is somewhat like an AC graph ;). People who found or traced the actual graph will be less or none. Like that graph, it may lead or get you up high or it may push you downwards to the negative maximum. But it “depends”. Love, it’s the elixir which would sometimes recovers life even from death. When it’s consumed more, it will result in an opposite answer. Either in the form of an addiction or a worse result when gets seized.
Coming back to the mind, it’s a complicated thing that all know. Like software in a computer, it’s also a thing which really exists but can’t feel or touch it anyways. Sometimes there will be a controversy inside on topic of existence of the so called mind. Whatever the situation may be, whatever the feeling may be, the mind is just a piece of miracle that the storage capacity and the control over the feelings are so superb.
By the way, a little doubt. Where’s this located actually?? In heart or inside the brain?? Many people point their fingers into mind to their heart or brain. That lead to ask this kind of question. I actually had an accidental conversation on the controversy of the location of the mind. And thus got a sort of conclusion (not a complete one), that it’s there on the tongue. What you say, what you express, it’s through the tongue. So it has a great control over the mind and the existence of life actually.
Got it! Words are those controlling things. They are actually showing/choosing/creating the path. The path most of all have to travel. The path for your co-beings, your dependents, your mates. It’s the same words are those which tells how to go through/how to cross/how to face the gutters of that path. So that’s why words are placed in an upper stratum. Some people will pull them down coz of their unawareness, coz they don’t have nothing to do with it and sometimes they won’t have anything in the place of aim. And there, the thing is sure that there will be/there should’ve been a lot of gutters in their path.
Words are those things which people won’t give its own importance. They are actually those things which are moving along with life. How to express them, when to use, where to use, all these things connects each other. Words are those things which are awaited, expected or waiting to be destroyed. Even if the words from an expected person are sometimes valuable.
Sometimes a man will be sent nearly to death for the words he used for seconds. And sometimes due to some words he heard for some seconds. To hear a word for his survival, man will do anything. Words are controlling human life. Every emotions or happenings in the so called life are bounded by the chords of words.

Love, break-up, happiness, missing, truth, lie, combining, splitting… all these are bounded by words. It’s obvious. Yeah everyone knows that. Even if some good n bad occasions in life are not planned before to be executed, some words, from the heart, will make those things happen. Life..it’s all about words.